the only boy in the world | redraw of a scene from episode 9
Depression. Not always so obvious. on We Heart It
i like to cuddle
i like to cuddle naked
i like to cuddle while dressed
i like being the little spoon
i like being the big spoon
i think about cuddling a lot.
Why I hate myself
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of the prologue
I’m tired of feeling hopeless, to constantly work and try and be positive and every time it comes crashing down without fail. It’s getting old, and I’m getting tired. Tired of this money obsessed world with no morals. Tired of what we as people have become.
I know fixing the world isn’t on me, but it’s problems feel like they’re constantly on my shoulders. I can’t ignore them.
You know the only way I ever saw myself going out is suicide. Not that i would ever do that now but part of me wishes I had the strength to when I was younger. So I wouldn’t see the world I loved so much turn into this. For everything to be corrupted, doomed. So I wouldn’t have to see people change into bad people, and have to see the one I held closest drift away. Then part of me is glad I never did so I could meet my amazing boyfriend, be there for my mom, and everyone else that stuck around. But lately I just feel like a shittier person, and I feel like I’m not good enough for my boyfriend half the time.
I guess the question is. If you’re only living for everyone else, how do you not feel as empty? If you really don’t like yourself, when is the point where you truly turn it around, love yourself, and never even think about turning back?
wish i was witty and cute but instead im sarcastic and annoying
Yosemite Valley by Starlight by Darvin Atkeson on Flickr.